*-. Cold winter ahead .-*

Recently, I was hit with a pretty big blow. It is highly likely I won't be able to go home to the Dominican until September 2009. No Christmas with my family, no showing my boyfriend my home city (who was going on a 24 hour trip for this!), no going on weekends to amazing beaches or sharing New Year's eve with friend. No seeing four (FOUR) of my best friends in the world, whom i haven't seen in months, or simply gossiping with our driver. No days of laundry, cleaning and cooking done by someone else, or going into a club and knowing everybody. Or checking in with past teachers to tell them how great I'm doing, or just spending my days lying by the pool in my backyard... We're trying to work something out at this point but... i've never been away from home more than,5-6 months tops. It's been almost 7 months now, and I was really thinking that no matter how much pressure, stress, etc. everything's ok because i'm spending Christmas with my family and New Year's with my boyfriend, in my home town. Not anymore. This was also extremely recent, and I am so thankful for my supportive parents, who happen to be in town this weekend. I'm trying to think about it, maybe I'll go to New York more often... but... who am I spending Christmas with?? My sister is 10 years old, and she recently told me she remembers the day i'm 'going home'... December 10th. *sigh* Fuck man. Fuck this... Fuck american bureocracy... ok no more cursing heh... I'm to the point where I might end up turning to a Higher Power. But let's not turn this into some cheesy "please god let things be ok post". Oops. It already did.